I'm sorry..

To all my faithful followers I want to apologize for not posting. The past few months have been the hardest ever in my life. For the past 10+ years i've been married to the love of my life. I still love him dearly...and would take him back in a heartbeat if he changed his current ways. How he is currently, even though I love him, I can not allow things to continue. I'm not faultless, but even if you ask him, he will tell you i've improved on the issues i've had, and I will continue to improve on myself. Anyone who is a friend of my best friend...my hubby, please reach out to him. He needs you now more then ever.

I've seen a lawyer, and a divorce is imminent. For Caitlynn's and Jacob's sakes i'm asking him to get his OWN place. I pray to God that he does. I want my kids to be able to say "This is Daddy's apartment" not what they would currently have to say.

Dont anyone ever doubt that I loved, well...Love him. He is "MY GREATEST" ... that emotion ranges from Love to Severe Dislike right now... but he was never a mistake...and I dont regret our life. I do want a better life back WITH him though, and do have hope, From him, that it could happen down the road.

I'm sorry to those of you that had been left in the dark. I cant... well wont, talk about all that has occured. But Frank needs to find God again. And I Pray that everyone here can help him see HIM again.

He led me to God....I must now try to lead him back.

Sorry Friends

I know blogging is not something i've been doing lately. For those that know me...and what is going on here I know you understand. Frank and I have had some marital issues, and we are currently separated working on getting back together. I'm leaning on God during all this, and my best friend...Frank, when at all possible. The kids are doing decent. Caitlynn's improving her behaviour in school And Jacob has been taken off his overnight feed for now! He's getting all fluids during the day, and doing wonderful sleeping though the night.

All I can ask of you ... is to Pray. A lot has happened I will not post here. A lot I dont even want to remember, but what is important is that I love my husband with all my heart, and he knows it. He has started telling me he loves me...and that means the world to me. Now just to get him back home so we can work on our marriage together...as we should.

Here are a few pictures from today, he's borrowed a "toy" from a friend for the weekend. Why do mens toys always get bigger and cost more??

please still pray

I know i'm not blogging...please understand blog family. I just cant.

Small Small update...

Today was a good day. Please Pray for more. God needs to be at work in this home....for us to survive this time. No matter what way this trial goes. I Pray He hears our hearts, and answers my prayers in the way He feels they should go. I know what I want...and what I fear. And I just Pray to God that my fears dont come true, and i'm blessed with what I want most in this world.

Prayers Needed

I cant go into detail but we need alot of prayers here. Please...everyone Pray.

The kids are fine...

Thankful for...

We're doing a thread on P2P right now and trying to keep it going till Thanksgiving. Each person posting something they are Thankful for each day.


Yesterday morning Jacob took his Zofran by mouth!! Then again last night and this morning! He's taking Meds WILLINGLY!!!! Tonight he took his Zofran and Prevacid orally!

And afterwards started asking for....

CANDY!

He's soooo loving smarties! His eyes got so big when I brought him 2....it's so amazing! He's eating! Not alot...not nutritious ;) but he's eating!!!

Halloween & For Connie

Hi Connie! Ok first...the video that i've been promising! My singing little man :) http://www.dropshots.com/cnjmommy#date/2008-10-29/18:11:41

He really is adapting well to having only one wing. You can see him having to think about how to do something, but most things he can accomplish :) He has a dr apt on Tuesday, they will x-ray again to check placement. Then the following week will be uncasting it and recasting it with his hand in a better position. His doc is amazing...and even reconized me when he went though my line Thursday. Amazing considering he'd only seen me a total of about 30 min's over 2 different days!


Next...halloween!!! Enjoy!!

Mr. I dont eat...apparently thinks licking a pumpkin is ok. UGH YUCK!


Yes he's outgrown the highchair...it's getting a new home soon. The new little one that will get it is entering this world on Monday :)


The guts are always fun!

He painted his pumpkin! And had a lot of fun naming the colors

Jacob helped a little...

She did 90% of it herself.

Finished pumpkin :)

What were we talking about ... oh yes "W" Sitting! I forgot to tell him to fix his feet. Woops!

Daddy...yes he dressed this way all day. The kids on his bus gave HIM candy! Jacob the Home Depot Associate...original I know, but it fit over his cast ;) And the Jailbird Caitlynn.

Our Jail-Bird... Caitlynn. She must of gotten into a fight getting out ;)


Pop-Pop and Caitlynn with their loot! They got over 500 pieces of candy! (including our leftovers of about 80 pieces)

Happy Birthday to me.....

Jacob had his follow up with Ortho today. Drive all the way there...wait and wait to get seen. Get in the room only to be told there's nothing they can do today. His bone is at a 45 degree angle after being set on Wednesday. He'll be going into surgery under full sedation on Thursday to take the cast off, re-set it, and put a new cast on. The greatest degree of angle they can accept is 20, so his is way off. He'll be going to school Monday-Wednesday, they dont think he can do more damage so we figured let him go. He doesnt seem to be in alot of pain, tylenol and low dose Lortab seems to be helping. Unfortunatly we didnt know a side effect of Lortab was constipation, and forgot his glycolax yesterday in all the excitement. So he was very very backed up tonight. He's almost cleaned out now though thank God.

The way to spend a Wednesday...

Jacob fell at school today and broke his right arm. They had to set it and cast it. Then cut the cast to allow for swelling, and ace bandage it so he cant attempt to get it off. Hes on pain killers, and has a follow up apt on Friday. Poor boy is having a very rough day. Please keep him in your Prayers along with some really good quick healing thoughts.

Walk Now for Autism

Hi everyone!!!

We have found a good way to spend a Saturday...but we found out about it a bit late. Thankfully due to Connie G at work I was already off!!! October 4th @ 8:30 we will be at Lowes Motor Speedway for a Walk Now for Autism event! We're hoping to learn alot about what we can do to help Jacob. And hope he has alot of fun while there too. If anyone can please help us meet our goal of $100 i'd really appriciate it. It's all going towards an awesome cause. Please forward this to anyone you know :)

Thanks!

And with much Love and Gratitude!

The DiMatteo Family
"Making Tracks for Jacob"

http://www.walknowforautism.org/carolinas/personal/jacobd

I know I know...

Blog wont you?

I will...But I wont promise since I know i'll break it ;)

It's been a hectic few weeks. School went back on August 19th and within the first 10 days both kids had missed a total of 5 days of school. 2 for C, 3 for J. We have a GI apt for Jacob tomorrow...wish me luck I get to take him by myself. And with everything going on I wish I had a 2nd set of ears and another brain...KWIM?

It's 11 days untill Jacob's 4th birthday! Where i'm so happy to see how far he's come. I'm sad to say if you ask him "what is your name? or How old are you?" he still doesnt understand. We are sending cupcakes into school with him, in the hopes that he'll at least lick one.

Caitlynn's birthday pictures were taken on the 14th of August, and Jacob's were taken the 6th of September. I'm in complete amazement to tell you they all came out great! Sears even called last week and they are remodeling their studio and want to hang a picture of Caitlynn up! That makes the 3rd time she's been displayed at a sears between PA and SC!! The lady that did Jacob's pic's (michelle) did awesome!!! She's going out on maternity leave, so we're going back in Mid October for Christmas pictures ;) That way we know they get done well!

I'll update more after Jacob's GI apt tomorrow. School has been both good and bad for Jacob. He loves it, loves his bus...and seems to like school. But there's a child in his class that tried to strangle him and is scaring the kids. I hope he's moved to a place better suited to his needs soon. In the meantime it's hard to tell if Jacob's scared, and he cant tell us 'what happened' but those of you that know my little man know he wouldnt hurt a fly. So it's scary to think someone can cause him danger in a class of 8 children. Please pray he stays safe...and happy in the enviroment he's in.

For you John :)

Zofran...Our Miracle Drug. Now to get Insurance to Approve a full month of it. He's EATING some food!!! And tollerating 6oz feedings!!!

It's August!

Caitynn's 10th birthday party was yesterday...INTO....today. A pool/sleepover party! Here's 1 picture...i'll update more later!

I had a long update planned, but then realized I have to be at work at 745 tomorrow morning so it'll have to wait.

Jacob's doing better...even trying to eat a few things. He cant tollerate ANY formula during the day...so we are mixing baby food, carnation instant breakfast, water and baby oatmeal for feeds. So far so good.

He's now on Zofran also, it's helping him sleep tons too...and helping with his night feeds. (he gets 3 cans of nutren 1.5 - 1,150 calories - overnight)

Home at last...

Home Sweet Home!

2 pokes...he pulled the first IV...and a script for some nausa meds... He hasn't napped all day, i'm he'll sleep like a charm tonight and see a nice new light tomorrow.

He told the doctor in the ER "Thank you very much! Buh Bye!" He told his Ped "Come on...Let go! Pool water!" She said she'd swim with him another time! Anything to get out of being poked and prodded!

Tomorrow will tell.... Pray people...Caitlynn's 10th birthday party is Friday it's a Pool/Sleepover with about 6-7 girls, the worst thing would be to have Jacob in the hospital.

Jacob's aweful week...

Things went from bad to worse with NO wet diaper overnight despite 400ml's of pedialite and oatmeal.I went to work and left him with mom...giving him 45ml's every hour. He gagged, retched and vomited 3 feeds...keeping in about 35 of each one. I called GI (his GI just left for vacation) The NP didnt like the sound of him and wanted electrolites checked. They called the ped...after a 30 min's of not getting ahold of her they were about to admit him to Greenville Childrens. They finally got ahold of her and got him in for a blood draw. 2 pokes...and VERY little blood...but enough for the test. They also put a pee bag on him... We went back 2 hours later after going for a belly x-ray checking for a blockage...he was clear.

Electrolites havent come back yet, but she doesnt like the "LOOK" of him..and the fact he screamed kicked and cried...with no tears for 20 min's. She checked him over good....and sent us to the ER for fluids. We're home packing up some goodies ... Thomas and A Fish named Nemo! Along with a blankie and we'll be heading there. The hope is after a bolus he'll stable out and tollerate the backpack tomorrow. Home Health is having a backpack delivered tomorrow...they managed to find him a Super Mini! I told her color didnt matter...that was the ONLY one that he cant wiggle out of I will be repairing his other one of cours As for Why he's like this...nobody has any clue.

If we cant work him back to normal feeds by Monday they may admit to figure 'what else' is going on out. We have a follow up with his ped's partner (seemed like a nice guy, he came in to meet us) they said we can cancel if he has a wet overnight, and 3 wets before the apt at 245. Otherwise they want to see him.

Ok Tammy....

We are back, but it's been hectic. I'll post a few pic's for you :)

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We'll be back Blog Family...we're heading to TN for some camping, fun and relaxation!!

He's Just 'off'

Jacob teacher today said he was just 'off' today. He didn't even play in the dirt. And for Jacob that is huge. She said he kept going over to the same table, with a truck, and watch the tires roll. She could not pull him out of his world.

That just makes me so sad, cause even with Autism you can usually pull him out. I so dont want to see the Autism win and take away his spirit. Days like this make me so sad for him. Autism WONT win! We can fight harder then it can....it seems he may of needed the Extended School Year, I just hope school deciding he didnt need it doesnt hurt him to bad.

Sorry...rough night. He acted the same way at home...and is now sleeping peacefully with his friends.

Swimming Fun - A post in Pictures

WOW 4th is over!

Caitlynn is officially a 5th grader!!! Her last day of school was friday, they had 1/2 days the last 3 days. Wednesday she got lucky and got out early...because on Tuesday she won a BIKE at school! One of the 4th grade teachers fund raises for a boys and girls bike for each 4th grade class. Then they raffel them off. Caitlynn won! :D

Her final report card was great...ALL A's and B's...ALL YEAR!

Her summer plans include...Reading all of Beverly Lewis's Abrams Daughters and Heritige of Lancaster County books. *Yes they are MY books!*

Swimming...

Biking...

Seeing all there is to see in and around South Carolina ;)

And of course...Her birthday party that is being held August 1st and 2nd. Anyone want to come help? There should be about 10-12 10 year olds sleeping over.

HELP US!!!

I have to add in here the Southern way to lock up your pool deck. It makes sence...really!

Lock the gate to the deck...

and Remove the steps!